A fresh start, a new beginning.

woke up at about 7.30. went to sengkang to visit my yiyi and also go cut hair. i cut, daddy perm. went to grandparents' house later, discuss about the family photograph which shows about 35 family members, who's the fattest... who's the shortest and stuff like that. went home and now i am, 3 hours later siiting in front of a computer.

went to interchange today. bought quite a lot of things. monday reaching. kenny you still haven give me your reply yet. :)

My neighbour's window kena hit by hammer by a mysterious woman. I CURSE that woman. heard from an uncle that he saw that woman, she was holding on to a hammer and she looks quite pretty. CURSE her... now police at my neighbour house take picture. something wrong with that woman leh. nothing do go hit people's windows. siao one. anyway, i think is tuesday chinese newspaper. My grandpa was on it man, i love the reporter. He took a photograph of my grandpa. He looks so funny. hehehe. its about an woman who commit suicide. that family is my grandpa 's neighbour. cause it like they are only separated by one household. in a way or another its still neighbors. feel uneasy now... as my neighbour which loves me a lot. her house kena. Trust me i will keep CURSING THAT DAMN WOMAN. WISH THAT SHE COULD BE CAUGHT FASTER AND SENT TO JAIL. DAMN YOU WOMAN.

Thank you Ms Chong, you helped me a lot today.

today wake up quite early. Common Test, history, source-based questions, i was quite stuck there. English period, ms nora gave out english common test paper, got 14.5 out of 20. something sad and terrible happened. science and mother tongue and maths i have completely no memory of what happen,.... i only remember using regin de new phone sent songs and also kena rape by banana. After school, i stayed back. went to see school counselor, Ms Chong, she taught me a lot of things. " Never be bothered by what people say, and what people demand from you." she says that i still have a lot more to learn to be able to adapt into the world of gossips, insults. The way through, i must tolerate and learn from others, changes when necessary, do not change myself when i think its not needed. Regin's character, dont expect me to copy her completely i am unable to do it and also unwillling. i would just learn from her and try to improve my weaknesses in her direction. hope that you would be satisfied with that. even if you are not, i would not know what can i do to improve. bye

my blogger is faulty again.... isit mine only or everybody's? my sixth sense tell me that probably is only mine., nvm. anyway, today was such a boring day, fengyi ask me go art frenz buy materials for teachers' day, but in the end i didn really go. then the rest of my day i spent in my room listening to music, slacking and emo-ing. till now after eating my Mac Chicken, looking at the ingredients for popiah, i wonder am i able to eat it for dinner later?

finally i am able to post pictures, in the end when i click the button... nothing came out. hai. gave up on posting pictures already..... Science was quite fun. banana told me the storyline of 吓到笑. it was quite funny, but i was like terrified/ shocked... when Mr Teo says "ok!" very loudly behind me to the whole class. hahaha i was like "AH!" halfway through banana's storytelling. After Science was D&T, i totally just made that machine spoil. Luckily PuSheng and JunSiang came to help me somehow. CME lesson was quite a spoil. Mr Lim had this forum. asking everyone what did he do wrong.... trust me, i have absolute no reply to his question, cause i dunno what and how to reply his question. After school till 2.30, i was so damn "lost". i dun even know what i was doing. then asked guanning and weiling go down help me buy rice. around 1.45 or 2, went down with regin, talked to her about lots of things, she helped me alot. Thanks Regin! :D Then when lesson about to start, talked to banana, lesson start liao, she moved her seat beside me. Solved a lot of problems then, THANK YOU BANANA! this weekend like no homework leh.... yay finally broke the "cold war" between me and yy. congrats, i talked to him leh, i so braveeeeee. hahahaha. :)

today had quite a long day. long one indeed. anyway, blogger still have prob leh. now at david's house. yiwen's campus group... seriously thinking what should i do tomorrow. Geo remedial..... just kill me. now i finally understand why banana would call our english lesson a sleeping pill. i bought from kenny 24 sweets and i ate like also 2/3 of it liao. Gladys was cursing me that i would probably kena diabetes soon., hahahaha.

forcing to leave,
sees an opportunity.

so isit my com got prob or what, school com can show blogger so well. why my com cannot,,...? so sad. anyway now having art lesson, meihui ask me call her, she want to *** in front of whole class meh> ? hahahaa. nothing to post, cold as ever

我承认我自己的脆弱，我承认自己的懦弱。但是这就是我。我没有说这件事完全是你的错，但是我自己认为在这件事当中，你错得比较多，按照比例的话，我认为你错得有大概70％，我则是30％。有可能你现在非常的恨我，说真的我也不知道要怎么办，顺其自然吧。

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Remember. They love you, you're Serene. They hate you, you're still Serene. Whether they like you or not, life goes on.

thanks banana and kenny. what they say make me realise something. but still i cant walk out of it. Probably the whole class is hating me, but like what banana say if they hate me i am still serene. it cant change anything, probably along these 2 years, i have been making the wrong choices, and choosing the wrong ways. people who i use to talk to had been irritated by me, everything had change. breaking down, cry is what i use to do. saying things that are not suppose to say is my character. people tolerating me rather than i tolerating people, i agree with sayen. maybe what she said about me is right, but still i cant accept it. Maybe i need time. More time to look into the mirror finding my true self. and from there improve. Learning how to mix with people. during that period of time, maybe my "haters" will increase, maybe all my frens will leave me alone, maybe no one will talk to me during msn, but still i hope to find the way to that mirror which will show me my true self.

so sorry i block you, i hope you dun mind. Hate me all you want. i know i am irritating, but sometimes your words somehow hurt me, maybe you wanted me to know the truth, wanted me to wake up. i am trying but i dunno if i can do it. for the remaining time, continue to hate me. maybe by hating me will let me wake up. i dunno. sorry, but i still have to say you are still my best fren after all. dedicated to bom bom.

设法想要打击你最憎恨的人，过程你觉得十分痛快。当你成功时，你目睹他那悲伤，无助的表情,会因此让你感到内疚。报复曾经伤害过你的人，对你的不忠，对你的背叛。曾经质问过自己，为什么我会一直面临友谊的破裂，是我自己的问题, 还是他们的问题，至今我还是不清楚... 认为自己永远是对的, 对于你自己是没有用的 ,因为这样的你会逐渐地让人憎恨，厌倦。对于你, 我已经麻木了. 看到了你藏在面具后面的那张真面目,我开始适应并且习惯 .这些字 ,并不代表我对你的憎恨 ,因为我对你已经没任何感觉... 相信我... 没有任何的感觉,...

Today i was wide awake at 9 just because of that damn carnival at my house park there. tomorrow must go school again hai. nothing to post. ps la. wait till tomorrow see got anything nice to post or not,... bye.

我不想等到我失去亲情，错过爱情，错失友情时，才开始懂得并且学会珍惜。直到那天时，一切都太晚了。失去亲情会让你自责，错过爱情会让你感到可惜，错时友情会让你感到伤心，绝望？如果阿拉丁肯给我三个愿望，第一个愿望我想实现的是，希望亲朋戚友都能平平安安，事事顺利。第二个愿望则是，希望我永远不会失去亲情，错过爱情，错失友情。第三个愿望就会是一个秘密。因为连我自己都不是很清楚那会是个怎么样的愿望。等到对的时机时，我所说的第三个愿望就会出现。但是一切都不真实，因为世上根本没有阿拉丁，因此也没有人能够实现我那不实际的三个愿望。

just went to airport to fetch my aunt. I love my god ma, she just gave me her Sony Ericsson earpiece without hesitation lor. love her man. anyway, today was quite slacking. Just woke up at around 12 noon. then started playing the com, reading xiao shuo. Then around 3,4 i stopped playing because of my ma's "noble" nagging. Started writing calligraphy and realise that my skills did not really... did not like gone down, it still maintain. :D its 11+ now and not much people online, Kenny's online, wow. Angelia too. now i am just hoping that 11.40 would not come soon as i have to off my dear com by then.. :)

你们想尽办法想要融化我这座＂冰山＂... 我不知道你们为什么会...认为我是冰山, 但是我真的觉得很感动, 你们以为我故意不理会你们, 像个小气鬼 ...相反的 ,我却认为你们故意不理我, 故意、玩弄我 ... 谁知道到头来只是个误会, 我会学习珍惜你们 ,希望在你们离开我之前.... 我相信我能做到这一点, 我知道想要保持永恒的友情很难.... 但是我还是会努力 ,努力得把这段友情保持到我们毕业的那一天... 带着朋友的温暖与爱 ,我决定奔向你们,我的那一群离不开的朋友...

现在的我是很幸福的... 但我不知道这道幸福回持续多久, 幸福是短暂的是吗？永远记得朋友的爱... 愿一切长久...

Today had quite a great day. haha when having science lesson we had so much fun. Banana seemed very emo today and also yesterday. I read her blog. She said she gave up on her Chinese test, that why when that day i ask her about the test, she only wrote 2 words on the first page of the test, and said she never do. i thought she was only joking or kidding me, but it turn out to be something that must be serious that happen to her. I wonder what happen... anyway, our d&t teacher had been changed from Mr Karmarudin to Mr Hafiz. when he came in, most of the people cannot believe our eyes lor, cause we never ever thought that we would had a change of d&t teacher, whats more its one of the disciplinary department's teacher. But his lesson was very fun, he had an another side of him, the hilarious side.after that was assembly, Mr Teo Chai Lai, said damn lot of things then and delay our time. :( lol. then he joked with us that make us laugh. hahahahaha. :D yay! finally weekend came! i gonna sleep until i feel satisfied!

今天是我的生日... 真的好多感触哦... 也不是说去年不好. 但是我敢肯定今年的收获比去年来得多很多. 今年的感触只有四个字能形容那就是... 失而复得. 失去了一段友情,还是我应该说我失去了我一直信赖的她, 我还以为从此我就再也找不到能让我信赖的朋友 ,到了今天我还发现我错了... 今天我收到了三份我最珍惜的礼物... 我真的好感动... 就如一封信所写的. ＂你让我知道，平凡也可以很快乐＂. 或许在许多人眼中我并不是一个理想的交友对象，但是我读了着封信后, 我真的好高兴 .并且也让我发现一年前的今天我还在和我两个最要好的朋友庆祝. 意外之中我收到了一张生日卡 ,当时我还在想送我的人到底是谁 ,我从来都没想过是她... 我真的很意外... 我收到那生日卡后 ,相信我, 我都在笑得合不拢嘴 ...另外一份礼物 ,我收到了 ,真的很感激她们... 谢谢你们...! 失而复得........ 我得到的东西真的比失去的还多... 就如 Vanessa 所说的, 事情发展成这样我并没有伤心或难过反而我还因此感到庆幸 ... 感到高兴... 经过这几个月, 我真的找到了真正的友情 ,或许有一天我们的感情会有一些裂痕, 也有可能破裂, 但是我还是很高兴, 我很满足现在我所拥有的一些... 或许正在阅读的你, 看到我写什么时会觉得很夸张 ,但是当你自己亲身体验时, 你真的会很感谢之前所发生的一切 ,因为你知道如果没有那些不开心的事, 你永远也不会得到你今天的一切... i really want to thank a lot of people. mentioning names now. Xinya ,vanessa, Sayen. maybe xinya and sayen who is reading this post now maybe shocked. but i really wanted to thank them if not for them i would not be able to receive and have so much care from my frens. the presents i received today was so great. i just wish to thank all my frens who have given me their blessing to me. Meihui, Regin , Jiali, Germaine, Jerry, Sheryl, Roman, Banana, Weiling, Gladys, Vanessa Chong, Hin Nge,GuanNing... and maybe some more but sorry if i forgot to mention. thank you all. This is really a day that i would remember the most, in my last year together as 2e1 i received much more care. i feel so happy. i enjoyed this last year of sec 2e1 together. I love you 2e1. and also to all my frens! LOVE YOU!

hai. still cannot post photos. no choice. must wait till next time ba. today history teacher never come class teach came another teacher but i dunno whats her name la. oh ART, i love it, cause i sleep for like half an hour in her lesson. next was mother tongue. oh i was rewarded a file for being "punctual" in handing up all my work. oh i was so proud of myself then. Gladys and Vanessa C. also got praised. haha. lessons afterward was quite hypnotising, other than science. hahaha. Mr Teo was so damn freaky funny. hahahaha. lol

After school stayed back until 6pm. hahah. we played police and thief with the auntie who will check the classrooms everyday. it was so damn fun. class deco for national day finally finish liao. 5 girls and 1 boy completed it. Christopher was the only boy left. Vincent went for softball. Christphoer was ordered around ( by me and vanessa mostly). so pitiful. hahahaha... until about 5 we were waiting for Mr Lim's arrival. when vanessa saw mr lim coming, she was like " eh... come liao! come liao! quickly go do something..! act like very busy! quick! quick!" i was laughing all the way when she was shouting and when mr lim came in i was still laughing. Mr Lim promised to treat us something like bubbletea, we rejected and said postponed it... hahahhaa. went home, wanted to pack bag for tomorrow outing but later thought that probably will do it much later in the night. I am so looking forward to tomorrow can?.... Hope that everything will go smoothly tomorrow. :D

Happy Birthday Roman! anyway it was like 1pm then i realise that today is 2nd of august. haha. anyway, today my aunt cooked curry. damn nice can. i ate like the whole "pack" of bread in just one afternoon with one bowl of curry. tomorrow is gonna be the worst day of my life. we have to go to parade square for assembly tomorrow, oh i am so damn suay. just hope that i am lucky enough ba. anyway i am so expecting 7th of August and also 8th of August lor. hehe :D

just wish that everything would go fine for me. :P

Serene ♥

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But,
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Cinderella walked on broken glass,
Sleeping Beauty let a lifetime pass.
Belle fell in love with a hideous beast,
Jasmine chose a poor man.
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